Sorry

I feel like such a big baby. What on earth could make me complain so much, I feel like a suck up, why should I demand replies to my thoughts, because that’s exactly what they are, my thoughts. Please forgive my sudden outburst of, whatever that was. Things aren’t so bad, I just haven’t lived here long enough to make friends yet, I mean it takes time right? Well enough about that, Sky High is a great movie, we rented it on Saturday, it is so funny, and it still has a good story line, it is not predictable, so that makes you very interested in what’s going to happen. Life is never as bad as we think; I guess I should remember that. I can only think of the pain others go through, im reminded of the acronym JOY (Jesus, others, you) Interesting, isn’t it to have a joy filled life we put Jesus first (Duh) then others and finally yourself, that’s were I have the problem, the others before myself, sometimes.
Why do we complain about nothing, I would like to know, what could be so bad, why can’t we just remember what awaits us in heaven and get on with the small things.
Isn’t that neat the big problems don’t upset us as much as the small mundane ones, or is that just me. Ah I talk too much, till next time,
Austin

Does anyone ever have time to post anything on this blog is the little amount of effort I put into this worth it, does anyone else wake up to see if you got an email or post on your blog, does anyone beg their mother to let them use the computer to check, does anyone even remember me! Would it be different if I did something every day with out blabbing? Or is my life just boring? Is everyone to busy for anyone else these days, do we just not have enough time to keep up with friends? Or do I write stupid things on this blog? I mean even comments I post on your own blogs go unanswered. You must not have moved ever, you must not know how it feels to really miss someone to never hear from good buddies again to go to a new place where everyone doesn’t like you, could care less if you came or went, It sounds stupid to some but you all yes you Andrew, Ben, Abby and hopefully soon to be others. I miss you all so much, and now everything goes unheeded! Do you have any idea what it is to be friendless, I mean truly, without one friend you can call to chat with, to tell funny stories, to look forward to a dance that you looked so dumb, and didn’t hardly dance, but you had a great time. You know what acquaintances are, do you really think acquaintances fill the hole left by best friends, do you know the cold shoulder? I have felt it many times, I don’t want to let you all become some old friends I write to occasionally, and then forget about, I don’t have any friends here, you are the only ones I’ve got, this city is full of nice people, but none of them want new friends, I mean good grief David you became my best friend and I thought you were a creep, reading mind control books, and how to read the human brain, and then you ended up becoming the one person I entrusted secrets to, I knew you for a few months and was telling you stuff I didn’t tell my family!!!!!!!
I guess im just selfish you have your own lives, now im not part of them and it’s easy to put aside old and bring on the new with guys you see. But remember me, answers my questions, Abby reply to LETTERS that were mailed, they are awaiting reply anxiously!!!! Please don’t leave me stranded in a new place with cold people, give me the comfort of your friendship tell me the dumb things in your life, remember I was a part of it one time.

Your friend who feels lost.
Austin


p.s. This is not in any way a ploy to make you feel sad, it is a plea for news and continuing strong friendship over the miles.